Monday, May 14, 2012

Five years after...

I've been feeling a little sentimental lately, and missing the laid lack life (that was post-college), so I decided to check on this blog since most posts here are circa '07-'08 (graduation and unemployed year). I realized I was right all along five years ago about the corporate world. I knew it's repulsive, and never gave me that feeling of fulfillment. Maybe it's this negative mindset that's been hindering me from growing, and becoming more successful. 5 years after, I am still doing my masters, and working hard on my thesis after a very public rejection almost a year ago.

I missed writing, and it's good that I have documented all my thoughts to remind my adult self of the dreams I had when I started working in the real world. This young, eager to prove herself kind of girl who I don't want to disappoint will be my inspiration from now on. Don't worry, young Anne, this year will definitely be a remarkable, game-changing one. 

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Quarter Life

I'm having a hard time sleeping lately. I worry about work endlessly. Although this is a good sign because it means I love what I'm doing - it consumes me; the return is not that satisfying. I know that I'm only biding my time until graduation but I really want so bad to excel in this field.

to be cont

Monday, March 16, 2009

To You

For each new morning with its light,
For rest and shelter of the night,
For health and food,
For love and friends,
For everything Thy goodness sends.

- Ralph Waldo Emerson (1803-1882)


I'm scared, overwhelmed, and confused. To You, I offer everything.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

On changes

My despair for a new life is peaking right this very moment and I wish to leave the current work as soon as I find a new one. I am genuinely hard-pressed for words to describe the work environment now because I'm still trying to figure things out. I remember distinctly how I wanted to get this job so bad a little more than a year ago, how I hoped to find that otherworld feeling of doing something every day and actually make a living off it. Then I started working. Everything changed.

How remarkably ironic life can be.

Sunday, October 19, 2008


there is nothing that makes me happier now than lying down next to you or having a good laugh over a bottle of wine with you. i love, love you and i never wish to be parted from you from this day on.

Monday, October 13, 2008

random bits

  • i skipped work today because migraine hit me again and i thought i needed a full day rest. i can't miss class tonight though, we're gearing up for the finals next week and i need inputs to rev up my ass to study finance. ugh.
  • i'm downloading wall-e through utorrent but my internet connection keeps going haywire every 15minutes. something about the network configuration/speed limit that my smart ass brain couldn't figure out.
  • i really miss the arts. i miss being surrounded by intelligent people who can lift me up from this dreary and boring world. i miss those passionate people who are just so much into appreciating the philosophy of life and not the shallow, material things that pervade in the corporate world. i miss my ateneo teachers and jesuits who had so much influence and effect on me in terms of looking at life at a broader and mature perspective. i don't know how people stay sane while doing corporate work because for me it's just a bit of a struggle. i usually find myself being pulled into one direction for a time only to realize that i need a sort of balance once again.
  • something is wrong in my life now and for some weird reason, i couldn't pinpoint it or even articulate it to myself. i feel like there's something lacking in my life albeit the stable job and the multiple things i do now. i've been thinking about it long and hard and i think i just need a break from work. work never gets fulfilling no matter how hard i try and make it look like 'good enough for now.' at least i'm still sticking it out and doing the best i can!
  • edit: finished downloading so i can watch na! hooray! =)

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

why hello september

adulthood is so hard.

decisions, decisions, decisions.