i've been wanting to write a novel-ish entry, but work's getting in the way. i just had a tumultuous week - (triple) madness at work, parents going through a midlife crisis, endless soul searching (i know it sounds corny but it's so apt to describe what i am going through now), chasing the ever-elusive allure of the kind of success i want for myself, trying to deem everyday work as meaningful and fulfilling, trying to save up for retirement (ha ha), trying to be happy. this frenzied search for validation of myself is so frustrating i usually end up crying on most nights.
