wake me up

sometimes stories know me too well. i don't think i can name all the books or short stories i have read that spoke to me simply because there are just too many of them and only a few ones hit the right spot. this story, however, is bullseye right now. just ONE tweaking: make it a heterosexual relationship for Pete's sake. but everything else - from the too good to be true, all -consuming, intense, obsessive friendship to the most painful awakening are just so... beautifully apt. oh i never thought i would compromise.

let's unite tonight, please.

p.s. pardon the cheesiness of my recent posts.

sick afternoon

so life has been odd for the past few months. i feel like everything is moving so fast and i am suddenly confronted by all the stress that comes with (ew) adulthood -- decisions, decisions. i can't believe that in just a matter of 3 days i have decided to go with what my heart has been telling me to do since graduation: pack my bags and leave. i don't know why but i feel that i am finally making the right decision now. and i am ever glad that my parents are always willing to support their wiggly child no matter how indecisive she gets on most days. i wish i have thought about this right after my so called hiatus but everything seemed to be fine back then to be honest. but on some days like today, i feel like my life is moving so slow and i will never be able to keep up with everyone.

indecisions. indecisions. how do we make them stop?